The problem

I've come to the realisation that Facebook isn't the problem.  Okay, so I kinda knew that, but now it has become glaringly obvious!  I have made incredible headway in the past few days.  I've accomplished a lot more in any one day then I have been over the last few months.  Some of it is because of school holidays, it's always hard to adjust to a change in routine, but some of it was due to apathy, resistance, and just not wanting to face up to my fears.

That is clear right now, as I battle with anxiety about going out to get school supplies.  I can't just jump on Facebook and pretend that I 'would' go, if I wasn't so lazy.  Maybe fear is that last ditch attempt from my psyche at resistance, maybe it is the cause of resistance.  Either way, I have to face it and just go out there and do my best!  I know I will feel better once I get out there, it's just a big hump I have to climb over to get where I want to be!

It doesn't help that I'm not 100% healthy either.  I've avoided healthy food, another type of resistance I guess, filling my body with crap so I have another excuse not to do something.  I really didn't realise my resistance (or fear) went quite that deep!  Oh well, time to suck it up and get moving!

And of course I was fine.  I let myself be a little less productive, by cutting out some of my tasks today, in favour of actually getting it done!

By the way, I'm learning piano, thanks uTube!  I still have a long way to go, but I'm practicing scales and tonight I learnt the first few bars of 'How to save a life' by Frey.  Which is why I'm still awake!  So excited!  It makes me feel accomplished, maybe I should put that as one of my core desires!  To or row I will learn chords!  Very happy with myself!